UGH. I have to retype a bit since some stupid pop-up thing kept coming up... If this gets to anyone else, I'm going to blamed for it... When it is not MY FAULT DAMMIT. (I'll explain more later)

So, today's exams were okay. Chemistry wasn't as hard as Joey told me it was, and Costume Design was pretty damn easy. I played some Final Fantasy III in Chemistry.... Got to the final boss.... Then got killed. D< Additionally it happened after my chem teacher came to see what I was playing... Maybe she did willed for it...? I also made a sort of lame bag in costume design after I finished my exam. ^^;; I'll take a picture of it some time.

When I got home, I decided to eat before using the computer... Leaving it free for my mom's financeé to play his internet game... Stacker or something like that.... So, I decided to do the Carrot, Fafnir and Diabolos. I wrote the locations of the hunts on a notepad that was by the computer. When I went to get it, Shaun handed it to me. But it was upside down.... and on the top (my hunt stuff was on the bottom) was the following:

if you only had one more day to live how would you life? would you smile or frown? would you hang onto a grudge or would you let it go and forgive? would you hold back the words i love you? would you watch t.v. or the sunrise? would you nap or play? consider this... you aren't guranteed tomorrow so what are you living for?

He gave it to me and gave me the look he only gives me when he wants to talk... He starts off with telling me that I've been writing some dark stuff as of lately... And I've been leaving those things lying around. I started by telling you that that paragraph came from a jar of body stuffs my mom gave me a while back. That aside, there's two things wrong with what he said. First off, I haven't been writing anything lately, so it's impossible to me to write anything that's "dark" or about "lost love." Second, I haven't been leaving any of those nonexistent writings about. I never did before. I mean, I've left a note from Tucker's ex-girlfriend around, but that wasn't serious, but that's about it. And even if I did, why do they have to look through my stuff? That's private, I might be under your roof, but don't go reading my stuff. It's not like I read your mail.

He then went on to tell me how he couldn't spend the last fifteen years his mom was alive with her because of her personal problems. I don't like it when he brings up that subject, it was obviously a painful time in his life, so I don't want him to remember it, I don't want him to be sad because it'll make my mom sad. Anyway, he was telling me how I shouldn't regret the past and hold on to things. The funny thing about that is... I don't. I mean, if something happens, I might be sad for anywhere from a few hours to a week, but I move on. There really isn't anything I regret....

So, I guess Shaun is under the impression that I am a sad, lonely, and possibly suicidal teenager. Maybe it's from the fact that I don't talk very much, not only to him, but most everyone at home. The reason is because I have nothing to say. And that's true, I really don't have much to say because there isn't really anything I think is important enough to mention. So I guess he also thinks that teenagers are full of things to say.... Well, maybe he gets that impression from the fact that when friends are over/I'm on the phone, I'm pretty animated.... That's because I think that our petty teenager lives are unimportant to him and my mom... I guess it's sort of mean to think like that, but still. He still has a lot to learn about Nikki.

I think he can't really accept the fact that I am the way I am. I'm quiet unless I have something to say. I'm really not a loud person, I just happen to have a loud voice. Besides, I think that he himself has some past demons that he needs to face. Truthfully, I do too, I don't think that they're important enough to pay any mind to, so why should I bother.

I know he tells me these things because he's worried, but honestly, I'd like it if he didn't. There are just things you don't mention. My normal at home behavior is one of these things.

That aside, I did finish those three aforementioned quests with easy... And the pop up thing.... Shaun apparently installed this annoying toolbar that appears right about the tabs (I use Internet Explorer because it's all we have... *coughnotusingAOLcough*).... I accidently click them from time to time... Uh... Oh! I finished that one-shot I mentioned last entry. Tis called According to Research, and it's for D.Gray-man and is slight pairing with Kanda. Click me to read it! 

Should you read it please review? :3 That aside.... not much else is going on.