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...then, I know there's nothing to fear. However, like that stray strand of hair that refuses to remain in place, it's bothering me, even if it's only in the back of my mind. It's only a tiny strand, a mere inkling of doubt, a small black drop of insecurity. But that tiny dark droplet is surely enough to stain a pure white piece of paper.

Anyway, so last night we went out to eat with Shaun's father, brother, brother's fianceé and fianceé's child (who is a brat, imo). Knowing full well that I would be heading into a two to three hour meal, I brought my iPod... But I didn't use it... Yeah, dinner was okay, Chinese food, which was okay by me. :D

So, when we returned home, a little while after 10PM or 11PM, Shaun came into my room and told me that me and the little one had one big present to share and this would probably be the last year he believed in Santa Claus. Afterwards I thought what this thing would be and came down to the conclusion that it was a game system, meaning it was either a 360 or a Wii. Personally, I wanted a 360, but I figured, with my luck, we were getting a Wii. I did have the chance to look down and see what it was, since it was downstairs unwrapped, but I decided against looking.

I went to bed late as well, trying to crochet a scarf (didn't finish either). But I didn't fall asleep until around 4AM, cuz I was playing The World Ends With You.

So, when I woke up a few hours later, I finally looked downstairs and lo and behold, there was a Wii down in the fireplace, surrounded by the small one's other gifties. Satisfied with what I found, I retreated back upstairs for a bit til I heard Shaun go downstairs. Since the little one was not among us yet I had to hold off on opening presents.

When he finally did arrive, we went through the presents and I turned out to be 66% correct on my current presents under the tree. I did not get a necklace but a... coin purse? o_O; From Lynz and Jack, twas pink and had a letter N on it... weird. But it's the thought that counts. And I actually liked the purse I got, twas red. I like red. :D

Other than that, I got two boxes holding two gift cards each. One had a Target gift card with an undisclosed amount (I know Shaun gets these at work or somethingso I figured that there was $25 like there usually is) and a Starbucks giftcard with $20. Yay coffee. lol, I should contact Micki...

The other two gift cards were both $50 for Circuit City and Barnes & Noble. It goes without saying I won't need to pay for books out of my own pocket for a while. Plus I got $50 from Shaun's father, so... Um. Shopping tomorrow? lol.

Also got a tablet, which was nice. :D Though I suck at usint it, lol. Need practice... And... yeah... The rest of the day seemed to last forever... I didn't have much to do... Didn't get any games for me this year (I'm buying some tomorrow, dammit), so I was kinda bored... Lynz sent the little one two Wii games; Hulk and Call of Duty 3 (lol, not your beloved COD4, Tyler)... But we didn't set up the Wii til later so... Yeah.

I helped out with dinner then after we ate we played WiiSports... Then... the longest two hours of my life began. I was so bored, I didn't know what to do... But yeah. Twas a good Christmas. Mebbe next year is 360 year, lol.

I miss Tyler, dammit. Tucker and I had a txt conversation and he asked if I had wished my boyfriend a merry Christmas, I hadn't, so I called him after telling Tucker I didn't. Obviously, Tyler didn't answer, so I left a message since I had something to say for once. ;; I miss him, dammit... ;; I don't want no fucking physical present, a call is good enough for me. ;;

You know, I've been off of babysitting for... four days and I don't really feel like I had a break. :/ 

On Friday I went to that party at Tyler's house. I mean, I'm not saying I didn't enjoy myself, but no rest that day. ;; Saturday we got Stephus, and while, again, I did have fun, once again as well, no rest. And yesterday I had to work half the day and the other half we were running around. :/ And today? Well, I didn't have any real alone time until 2PM, but it doesn't feel like enough... Honestly, I'd rather do the busgirl job everyday, both shifts, but I promised I'd babysit until the 19th, so, yeah.

Also, on losing my retainer, it appears to cost around $300 to replace it. There goes my convention money. D:

Well... I make $6 an hour, plus tips so that's .... Fifty hours of work. I worked four last night. Night shift is supposed to be four to ten, that's six. That's fifty night shifts. Fifty days to make that money. :/ *sigh* Iunno. 

I should stop talking about dismal stuff, I'm already down.

First, I've been waitinf almost nine hours for Faith to pick me up so I can go over there and babysit Nancy Ann tomorrow. She didn't tell me when she was gonna pick me up, but if she had told me she was going to do it around this time (it's almost nine) then I woulda made plans with Tyler, like I had hoped/intended to, but what happens, happens I guess. There's always next week. :/

But, god, shouldn't the pool be closed by now?

I'm not down because I pretty much wasted today sitting and waiting. I actually got a song I was looking for today. :3 That was good. I'm down because I probably did something I shouldn't have. It's not anything that'll get me in trouble, but, I'm kinda scared of what'll happen because of what I did. I shouldn't be afraid because... well, I shouldn't, but that doesn't mean I won't be. 

I really wish I could mind read. :/

Not that it would help if I had to see the person whose mind I'm reading, lol.