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27th-Jun-2009 06:38 pm - unique



I'm sure that everyone has heard, at least once, in their life, that they are an unique individual and that there is no one else in the world like them. Naturally, I've heard that too... But I've also seen that I have clones running around this earth, so I guess this means my personality may be unique.

Who knows though?

I know that this sounds particularly sardonic, but since that's how I feel I think it's particularly acceptable.

When presented with certain situations, I think that people usually refer to their own experiences in their reactions. So if someone told me about a bad break-up I would, naturally respond with my thoughts and feelings from a bad break-up of my own... Of course, in that situation, I think it would be offering advice.

I've always liked guessing at how people will act, and usually I would take my knowledge of their personality and things they've said and done. Of course, there are always people who could be hiding beneath a very convincing mask, but usually when I psychoanalzye people it's when I've known them for a fair amount of time. That way, I'm probably not wrong.

I hope anyway.

But anyway, the point is if you were living underneath the same roof with someone for five or so years and you known them for eight or so years, wouldn't you feel slightly offended if that person didn't know how to spell the name you always go by? I've never felt the need to correct him, but it's always irked me a little. I mean, my rendition of my name has appeared many places in the house.

Even more spefically, I think it's kind of insulting if an adult looks at you (as a teenager) and assumes you're going to behave badly, or behave like they did when they were your age (i.e. badly) without any regard to your own character. I mean, I really do understand the mentality of looking out for your kids and making sure that they don't make the same mistakes you did. But honestly, I find that I learn so much better from first hand experience than the vague recollections of my elders. I'm not saying I'm going to go get drunk so I know how horrible a hangover feels (that is just plain stupid after all), what I'm trying to say is that I'd like to have room to make my own mistakes so that I can learn from them.

I don't really appreciate the whole... "when i was your age" thing either... Well, that's in the negative connotation (isn't it usually?). Like, I said, I guess it's advisory to keep me from doing something that I might regret later on, but really. When you were my age what? You did this, you did that... But that was you, not me.

And wasn't I told that I was unique?

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27th-Jun-2009 06:05 pm - control
roxasgaag
I once told Tyler something along the lines of... "Parents are dictators." Which, is basically true, they tell you want to do and if it mattered enough, you get yelled at if you don't do it right.

My mom and I are usually pretty cool. She usually lets me do my own thing and so it's all good. Of course, she always, when she isn't mad at him, feels the need to let him know every little thing she's doing. I mean, in some cases I can understand, like if we're gone for a while, or if we're going to the store, or to McDonalds. But every little thing?

In the past, he's said that I can have friends over so long as I have my mom's approval (assuming the friend is female, if the friend is male, Shaun's consent is a must since this is HIS house), so earlier, I asked if Amber could come over, and first my mom is like... "It's up to you" then she's all... "Hm. Have you told Shaun, we need to tell Shaun." Before, Amber could come over as long as my mom consented.

You know, last time she came over, Shaun was all... "Make sure you feed her" or something like that... I think I blogged about that one too... I mean, yeah, I'm going to have my friends sleep over and NOT feed them [/sarcasm]. Just because I don't eat sometimes doesn't mean that I'm not going to make sure my friends eat.

And if there's no food in the house, is that my fault? Besides, I know better than to invite people over when there is no food.
24th-Jun-2009 08:11 pm - return
I come back from Arizona and I've got lots to worry about.

Trip was fun though.

Okay, so first of all, this just happened, but Shaun used the computer earlier, and he logged me off and I had a conversation open, a big group one, and no offense to them, but the peope don't always talk about the most teenager friendly things... So I might get the talk about talking to people you don't know in real life online. I don't mind being scolded all that much, but he's just so insanely paranoid.

Second, my brother, Tyler, is coming to town and we were supposed to have lunch or something.

It makes me über nervous. ; A;

...yeah, doesn't seem like much, but it feels like it to me.
15th-Jun-2009 11:18 pm - frustration
roxasgaag
Arizona (also known as Schroedertrip) trip in a few days... So excited!

I went to Target and got a swim suit... Had the usual yearly shorts argument with my mom... looks like no shorts this year.... orz. I look scary in a swimsuit... and kinda... fat. DDDx

Also, I happened to suffer running about with my fly down... So embarassing.

Anywho, it's times like these I wanna punch someone in the face. We should all have a good idea who would be ideal in this punching situation. I don't know... I mean, I can understand not wanting to talk to someone and if Tyler doesn't want to talk to me that's fine. I mean, even though I'd like a reason why he doesn't seem to want to talk to me, it's perfectly fine... as long as he tells me that he doesn't want to talk to me... Like, when someone IMs me and I don't want to talk to them, I, in the very least tell them I don't want to talk. And, you know, I don't really ask for much, I just want to chat a little. I mean... yeah. I log off sometimes without a word when a conversation hasn't been active for a while, but if someone IMs me I try to respond to them at least just once...

I dunno. I really shouldn't worry about it.

Anyway, I started writing again.. I posted a drabble called Warmer and I'm working on a one shot called Semblance... it should be up, hopefully, before I go to Arizona.

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11th-Jun-2009 03:30 pm - flustered
So you know that last actual entry? About when I went to Tucker's house? So, earlier, I get an IM from him where he said he was joking about the "oh really" response to not being my type. At first was like, what? Then I remembered the blog.

lol.

After thinking about it, it makes moar sense that Tucker's joking.

Silly Nucknuck.

...so bored. xD

My life is so boring still. *shot*

EDIT:

Oh. So, we... had to give Teddy away... Not because we don't want him, but because we think it's better for him to find a better home... I mean, he's so energetic and I don't really, as mean as it is to say, have that kind of paitence... So... yeah. Shaun took him with him to work today... Apparently, his new family has three kids... plus their dog just passed away so... I think that it's a good place for him... ; A;  The puppy will be happier there.
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