Bah. It's almost a quarter to three in the morning? Why am I still awake, you ask?
Simple. I'm doing something I enjoy so much that I'm willing to lose valuable sleep to do it. I happen to like sleeping, especially on the weekend because I can sleep more than I do during the school week where I have to get up early and go to school. So, I normally wouldn't be up at this time because the longer I'm awake, the less time I have to sleep.
This month happens to be November, which is also NaNoWriMo, which I participate in yearly. We all know there's a communication disconnect in my house so my mom knows I do it, but apparently Shaun does not. Of course, since the competition has started, I've done my best to get my 1667 words done before he goes demanding for the computer to play his online poker. Luckily, I haven't had to deal with it much, since since the month has started he's come home after I've gone to bed.
So, today and last night mom and Shaun left to go do their own thing (eat?) and I was on the computer writing. Now, I'll be honest, I'm almost always on this thing regardless of time of the year. Usually, I'm not doing anything productive, but since it's NaNo, I've been writing. But today, I felt like making an AMV, so lo and behold I start. When Mom and Shaun return home from their errands I was on, working on it. They left to go to little Shaun's football game, still working on it (I'd like to mention on another note, though this was probably accidental that my mom told me they were going to the game when they were running errands), they come home. Still working. Anyone who makes those things know it's rare to pop those out in an hour, especially since I spent half an hour importing all the videos into WMM (which sucks). When they come home, Mom asks what I'm doing and Shaun announces in a condescending/mocking way that I'm on the computer like I was this morning. I was cleaning up some dishes when they left for errands if I remember correctly.
So, after Shaun complains Mom drags me out of the house and we go do some things before returning home so she can get ready for the both of them to go clubbing. Since I didn't do any writing for today, I start on that. He comes and gets her around nine. I'm still writing.. .Writing til 1AM. Then I start on my prettyful AMV and I'm still working on that when they get home.
Now since it's around 2:30AM, I know I'm gonna get it. But Shaun comes home announcing that I'm on the computer like I was at ten this morning. Well, guess what, kiddies, I wasn't even awake at ten this morning. I know this because the text message I sent to Sam when I first got up reads 11:30AM, but would you like to know who was probably on at this time? My mother, of course, but that's not the point. I'm perfectly fine with him saying I've been on the computer all day in a patronizing tone. I'm perfectly fine with him saying that there's a bunch of stuff in the world outside this house and I should get out more in a patronizing tone.
I don't appreciate him saying it as if I haven't been doing anything productive. Okay. I've been so much better with NaNo than last year, it's not even funny. I'm actually keeping up. And I'm proud of that. Of course he doesn't know that, does he know what I do on the computer every day? Probably not. I know what he does. Check his email and play poker. But anyway. I've been working hard on that thing, and hearing him talk like that is a real motivation killer. And I've been working on this AMV too, and WMM has been a complete bitch for me to work with. I really don't appreciate him coming home and announcing I'm on the computer like always when I feel I've been doing something productive that I enjoy.
So, mother, you were complaining about blog entries. Here's one.
It's perfectly fine if you want to say that I don't get out enough and that I'm on the computer a lot. Go ahead and say it's unhealthy, I won't argue with you. But is it really right of you to condemn it if I enjoy it? I like writing. I like movie editing. Sorry that these things are more easily done on the computer. :I
Anyway, it's just past three in the morning and I've wasted the last half hour. Thanks for that, but I can't be productive when I'm mad. Now, back to your regularly scheduled lives.
...I'm surprised I'm still this coherent at this time of day. I may not sleep tonight.
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I was actually going to do this later today once I had fulfilled all my plans, but alas.
Sooo, yesterday was the end of the quarter and I saw my pitiful grade on the physics test I took on Thursday. You don't need to know the number, just that it wasn't pretty.
Um... Fourth period was spent waiting for pizza. Really. Everyone was focused on it. Me, Tyler, and the kid who sits behind him, Alex, were playing a word game... It was like, you say the first word that comes to mind when I say this. We all know I'm a pervert and it doesn't help when sometimes Tyler (who went before me) threw words at me that could be taken so bad. Though one interesting string was when Tyler said e = mc^2, then I said the speed of light (no that is not the speed of light, which is... 3 x 10^8, yes?) and then Alex said his ex-girlfriend and Tyler said Nikki. Now what do I think of first when I hear my name? "What?" But I said me.
Anyway, when the pizza arrived we all attacked it.
Also, Sam had to stay after because her Spanish teacher wouldn't let her make up a test she missed after school, so she followed me for the rest of the school day. Then it was Harry Potter Club tiem. I went up, dropped my stuff off and ran to the band room. Long story short, I did not know that people who are not in band are not permitted in the band room. A logical rule, but I wish Mrs. K had cut me some slack- no one told me... Well, Christie Garland was trying. I was too focused on Joey though. Never again am I going into that room. Bah.
Then there was club-ness. Nicco asked me to keep the Ravenclaws in order (which isn't hard because other than me is the other Nicky... or... I don't know how to spell her name) and Tyler who came for the food. Ahaha. More on him and the party later. Anyway, me being me, walked home with him, though nothing substantial was talked about... At least I don't remember anything very important. But I do remember afterwards that I texted an apology for acting a bit inappropriately at the party. For example, I joked at me and Tyler were getting married and he played along saying that the Harry Potter Club party was a lame reception... or something like that. Basically I was overly friendly, which is not what I meant to do.
There's no use in denying the fact that I still like the kid. I just have to do my best to keep myself in check. Which isn't that hard... normally.
Anyway, Vanessa texted me a little after I got home inviting me to a surprise birthday party for Courtney that was at 6. My mom reluctantly let me go. But before I went Amber called me and we were talking. She told me that Amy had said that Tyler and I appeared to be flirting at the party (accidental- I couldn't purposely flirt to save my life, or at least not seriously) and that 'something was happening there' or something akin to that. Amber, I know you'll be reading this, what did she again? o_o;;
Okay, so I went to the carnival where Courtney's surprise party was. I met Vanessa there and eventually Razia and Courtney showed up later. Razia forgot to ask me earlier that day in class (which was fine, we were ALL thinking about that damned pizza). I felt really bad because I couldn't pay for the majority of my tickets and everyone else did. ; A: I hate feeling like such a moocher.. But we had a ton of fun... Going on a ton of spinning rides... Three in a row, then one more later. Yeah, needless to say I nearly pucked after that last one. Also, on that last one... It was one of those rides where you go upside down and you're in a little cage thing and it goes faster and faster. Yeah. The buckle on my thing unbuckled and I was only being held down by the metal harness bars. I told Razia and she was like, "Are you fucking kidding me?!" She curses a lot on those rides. ^^;; Anyway, we ate afterward and I felt so bad because I couldn't contribute in paying for stuff. ; A;
Today, I had the ACT so I got up really early and walked to school since I was smart this time and decided to take it nearby instead of taking it across town. I saw a bunch of people I knew, Razia among them. I think I did a little better this time, but I still rushed the last few questions on the math and science parts. When I got home I relaxed for literally three minutes before Amber called asking if I was ready and that they'd be picking me up within twenty minutes. Fun. So, when they came they filmed Smokey running at their project and we went to get Stephu. Then we were filming til a quarter to five so we could drop Stephu off at home.
When I was about to be dropped off, Bri called me and invited me to another surprise birthday party for Courtney. So, I got home and asked, and once again my mom reluctantly let me go- this time we were watching a movie. Which was good. :D That... Vampire's Assistant. Yeah. THE PROTAGONIST WAS IN A SUIT FOR A BIT. I CANNOT RESIST.
Ahem. We had some pizza and played DDR after. I'm rusty cuz I failed a ton .
But yeah... Today was busy. o_o;;; | |
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I totally spaced on asking Tyler a question during school yesterday so I asked after, and boy did he give me a good one. He asked why I like him/what attracts me to him. Fun. Lately, I've been wondering myself, though why I STILL like him is the focus of that question instead of why... So I spent a good... five or so hours writing our my response.
It was this morning that I realized how terribly embarassing it is for him to read that. ; A: I had the notebook out in Computer Science and he was like, "It's because I'm so sexy, isn't it?"
Even if it was, I wouldn't tell him that.
Anyway, the Advanced Study kids weren't getting taken today, which was good cuz I wanted Tyler around to help my with my assignment. When he was first coming over, Malissa asked what he was doing there. Then he pointed at me, and said, "She wants me. She wants me so bad."
I know he's joking (though it is kinda true) but that was just cruel. ; A; He helped me with the assignment though, and I felt uncomfortable throughout the whole thing. I don't know if it was because my embarassment or something else. I think it was something else though.
Come physics class, Tyler decided to take the notebook to read the response, I guess he REALLY wanted to know the answer. He started walking back to his desk, but I didn't want him to take the notebook away, not that he'd read anything else in it, but when he was looking for the answer, he stopped on a page that it was clearly not on. And there are other things in that notebook I don't want him reading. He read it during the annoucements, and as he was I was fidgeting nervously. When he was done I told him that it was very embarassing and he just smiled telling me that I had told him to make the questions more personal and that's just what he did. But I didn't think that he'd ask THAT.
But we were playing with water balloons in physics, it was fun, though me and Micki didn't make it very far. ; A;
In English Lit I had to endure Ozz and Connor telling a revenge story (both sides though, so it was very interesting).
We were sorting out text messages in Creative Writing, but I was more into chatting with Tyler.
At lunch we were talking about Em and how she's always absent. ; A; I mean, she doesn't intend to be, but she should try harder, methinks.
I played keep away with Vincent's muffin in government... Then I sprug a calculator program I wrote where people lose the game on some kids in my class... It was so fun. I showed it to Alex, who told me to show it to this kid, Anthony, and the kid next to him wanted to see it... Then Anthony told me to show it to Aaron behind him, then I showed it to Scheri.... Ehehehe. I just like doing it to watch people's reactions. I also showed it to Tyler in fourth, but he was laughing because of my silly programming. Where A times 1 equaled B. Meh We also took a political idealogies quiz thing... I'm a moderate, almost in the smack center, lol. Sam Jackson next to me was surprised because she thought she was liberal. I think she is too.
Math was... ehh.
Then, I stayed after school a little because when I asked for Tyler's question today I asked for another one and I felt... bad and obligated to answer the first... Even though I couldn't. So I called Tyler and found him in Mr. Adams room, which is apparently where he hangs on the days he has work. Anyway, I stayed until he left and then he asked if I wanted to walk him to his bus stop. I sarcastically asked if he really needed an escort. On the way out, we saw Micki and she asked what we were doing, I told her that I was escorting him to his bus stop and Tyler said he didn't want to get lost. Then I told Micki that if she went on another coffee date she needed to avoid coffee. Tyler then asked who she was dating, and I said it was a college kid. So, me and him talked some more on the way to his bus stop and there til it came.
...I'm such a bad kiddie. Doing things it would be wiser for me to probably not do. But oh well. | |
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I was gonna wear a dress today, but as I was putting it on I remembered that we might be working on our scarecrow in Creative Writing and that I felt kinda.... fat in it. Not because it was tight on me or anything like that. But it was really big and kinda poofy so... Yeah. I decided on a tank, sweater and jeans. I got to school and was going to the College and Career Center with Malissa, but it was closed... Or moved. I don't know. But then I got hit with the idea to get back at Mininger for texting me, so I went to Bycraft's room to ask if I could write Alex a message on the board... No such luck. ; A; Then I had the idea of maybe sending him a gator gram- no luck there either. So... I gave up. Though in first period I asked if Tyler would be against me seeking vengence against his smaller, lighter haired clone. He said that it depended on the severity. It's not like I want to publically humiliate the boy and scar him for life- he's never really bothered me. I mean, I think the worst he's ever done other than the texting thing is splash me in a pool. Anyway. I really, REALLY did not feel like doing work in Mr. Adams class so I just sat and talked. Tyler had brought his laptop so I was periodically checking what he was doing there. More food in English, I guess projects are a good excuse to bring in food to class, lol. I liked Sam's monster- a flying bear. And Sean's had the best name- Jack Yoshit. In Creative Writing we were, as I had figured, working on the scarecrow. It was me, Tyler, and a bunch of the other kids from the original seventeen in Creative Writing- the new kids don't want to do jack squat, like, there were two girls who came to help yesterday and left after... three or so minutes. Urgh. But we got a lot done, but I don't think it'll be entirely finished. ; A; I'll feel sorry if Mr. Kern finishes all by himself... I mean, I helped all four days (and the only one to do so, thank you very much). We should have started it earlier though. I don't remember much at lunch, but toward the end me, Malissa and Tyler had the idea to steal the Enterprise off of the window downstairs and take it to Mr. Adams. Maliss was like, "Srsly?" Me and Tyler were like, "Srsly." And we went to do it. Tyler and I were pulling it off and Malissa was kind of apprehensive. I don't blame her, but as the math nerd put it, "We are seniors. We do what we want."
Me and Tyler had most of it off, by the time she pulled a bit. Then, we paraded it to the hallway Mr. Adams' room was in. I was telling Malissa to open the door, but some other girl did. Then the bell rang and Malissa left. I said something about Tyler and him going to class but he said something about math being in that hallway. He has math third period (fourth had just let out at this time). So we waited until Mr. Adams' room emptied out and we went in. Mr. Adams, upon seeing us with our prize said, "You guys rock!"
Yes, Mr. Adams, that's why you love us (or at least Tyler) in a non romantic way.
Anywho, he told us to put it up on the back wall, and we did, standing on the desks to do so. While we were putting it on Stephu came in (her fourth period is two rooms away). I was making sure it was on there good and I slipped while moving from one desk to the other and fell forward... or sideways. Tyler happened to be in the direction of the fall and half-caught me. I don't know if I thanked him. I hope I did. It wasn't entirely awkward, but... yeah. Not a situation I want to get myself into.
Additionally, he seems to grow tired of the question game, and wondered if it were okay for him to lose, but I told him the game continues even if he does.
Anywho, homecoming assembly was boring. I always forget how much I hate it until the actual thing. It was warm outside and I didn't get to hear the band loudly enough. ; A;
Harry Potter Club today. And we found that all of the decorations for Spirit Week were gone so Malissa could not get her Slytherin crest. Which makes it very good that me, Tyler and Malissa went after the Enterprise when we did. We were taking pictures of it in his wall (Me, Malissa and Mr. Adams).
Um... I tried on a bunch of dresses earlier. Settled on one. It's short and black. I wanted a tight short dress, but we lack the money to go dress shopping. Also, Alex decided to text me and tell me who he was, though I already knew, and technically he should've known that I knew. I have to ask Tyler if he's the one who instigated that text.
Uh.
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I don't really want to talk about the dramu that happened last night. But, Shaun wanted to play his online poker and I was working on my physics lab. He asked for an ETA of me being done and I said that I didn't know and maybe around 8.30PM (I ended up finishing a little past ten, but I would've been done earlier if...). Since he wanted to play, and the quality of my lab really wouldn't have changed if I hand wrote it, I got off, but he was like, "No, no, do it right."
It wasn't in one of those caring parental ways, it was in those complaining ways. Well, doing my lab by hand would still be correct. What pissed me off was that he said I had all day to do it- not true. I was out most of yesterday. Did I have all weekend? Maybe, I'm lazy though. Anyway, I still didn't get back on until I decided to call Tyler since me and Malissa (via texting) were getting weird numbers. And then it was ten minutes of amusement as I listened to Tyler rant and rave about Joey not writing an equation on their lab paper, and even better was that Tyler was talking to Joey on MSN so it was kinda like he was talking to Joey with me listening.
Oh so fun.
Anyway, today was the first day of Homecoming/spirit week with Star Wars vs Star Trek day, and it's not entirely a good idea for give kids a good reason to bring light sabers to school. Ha. I had a cheap Darth Mask, and since I wear glasses, I didn't haven it full on. Just on the side of my head. xD; But it was irritating.
Today was the first day that the advanced studies computer kids weren't in the room, and boy was it quiet. We, being me, Malissa and Micki missed our favorite male math nerd bickering with the boy who sits behind Malissa- William, I think his name is. Also, Mr. Adams was disappointed in us, the nerdy class for only having two people dress up for today. Additionally, he fulfilled his role as the teacher of the nerdy class by saying he wanted the paper Yoda and Enterprise in his classroom as decorations. Ha.
We had a pseudo-fire drill today. It wasn't really a drill because I guess one of the smoke detectors went off. Also, fire drills don't happen at the end of the class periods and we aren't outside for twenty or so minutes. Anywho, it happened at the end of physics. Tyler was kind enough to call my phone so we could hear if it was loud enough to be heard in the crowd- it was.
English Lit was boring. I just kinda sat there.
I don't rememeber much of Creative Writing. I think Mr.Kern just went over the categories for the Art and Writing contest. Also, Tyler's question was lame. In regards to that, I think I'm going to start a separate page for that. I'll link when it's done or something.
When I went into Ms. Stricklin's class I got one point of extra credit. So, yay!
Last week I signed up to help after school with our Creative Writing scarecrow. Today me, Tyler and Razia were signed up. There was another girl, but there was no way in hell she was going to show up. Also, since Razia's day apparently ends with fourth period she helped Mr. Kern with the thing during fifth and sixth periods... But not after school, also, Mr. Kern left for a long while to get tape leaving me and Tyler by our lonesome. Not that I minded, but I was hoping Razia would show. I mean... yeah. You know. It wasn't that awkward though. At least I don't think it was. ._.; But, you know that if this had happened a year ago I would've been ecstatic? Anyway, Mr. Kern soon returned and Mrs. Kern came to join us. For as long as I've been going to Green Valley, I've known the Kerns one of the married teacher couples (the Beams and the Snyders as well). Recently, I remarked that no one is married to someone in their department... At least not to my knowledge. Anyway, so it was the four of us working on the thing. Nyar.
Then me and Tyler walked home together since we both live up the hill. We talked about jay-walking (and how much I hate it) and our dogs. I wish I could see Jersey (Tyler's dog), I bet she's totally adorable now (as most all dogs are). But, now that I think about it me and Tyler don't ever really talk about our past. He doesn't because I don't think he wants me to go freak out on him, and me because I have no need to talk about what happened. I'm still curious about some things, so whenever he brings it up I ask. It's not entirely that I'm upset about it all and it's just something I want to forget about, I just.. I don't know.
Also, I took his phone today since he called it at lunch to see if we could hear it there too (which we did) and went through his contacts and... stuff. Nyar. = 3= | |
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